Of Two Minds

When the light reaches through

My heavy-lidded sleep

I lay still a sec or two;

Will I smile today, or weep?


On days of the first

I plan, I work, I do.

An energetic burst;

But days like this are few.


On days that feel the latter

I put on a brave face

I fill my day with chatter,

My effort leaves no trace.


I have thought to reach for aid

But don’t know how to express

How parts of me fade;

How each day is less and less.


Who could know this blight?

Who sees through the smoke?

Who would know I’m not all right?

Who sees I hide behind each joke?


When the light reaches through

My heavy-lidded sleep

My mind get it’s on-cue.

Which mindset will it reap?



Don’t Say

Not to speak

Words that hurt

Yet dreaming softly

Of the dirt.


Bound up tight

Stress and fear

An urge I fight

Still lingers here.


I am at war

My smile: armor

My silenced core

Plays the charmer.


I’m lost inside

Don’t know my way

My compass fried;

Lost to the fray.


I know the prize

That hides within.

I keep my soul;

If I can win.


*note: this is one that was written a few weeks ago by hand, I just finally typed it up.