If you have been following along, you already know I am a scattered, head-in-the-clouds, procrastinate to the last minute sort of person. Half my thoughts are in the land of make-believe at any given moment, on any given day. I’m not sure if I am this way because I am creative, or if I am creative because I am this way. It’s a chicken or the egg issue that I don’t bother trying to figure out, I’ve always just gone with it (much to the frustration of many teachers throughout the years).
I (along with my wonderfully supportive husband) decided fairly recently that I am going to focus on writing professionally. It is a dream come true for me, and could only be made more perfect by any small measure of financial success. I take my dream very seriously, and I have dedicated a great deal of my time to achieving this success.
In making writing my career I have tried to combat my scattered personality by follow a schedule, challenging myself with writing exercises, and attending several writing groups. One of my writing groups led to being part of a published collection of poems (A Tapestry of Verse)and I am still going strong with my personal poetry challenge (read about it here on the first day of my challenge, and the several posts that follow), though there have been some hiccups. The one thing I am struggling with most, and the thing that seems to be more of a hindrance than help, is following a schedule. I really gave it a go, trying to set times to be creative, and trying to have a daily schedule that is consistent. But the more I tried to schedule time to be creative, the less I seemed to accomplish.
Enter one of my closest friends. I was talking to her about the creative dry spells I’ve had lately. The subject of my schedule came up. She asked why I would try to keep to a schedule at all. Isn’t that why I’m not working a traditional job, so that I have loads of free time? She knows me and my personality better than most people, and she pointed out that its unlikely that I would be able to be myself and come up with anything uniquely me while trying to fit into a traditional schedule.
She laughed at me for even trying. I thought about it, and she really has a point. The whole reason I am not working anymore is so that I can make writing my career. Keeping on track is important, but not if I am boxing myself in. There is no specific time of day inspiration strikes. What was I thinking? So from now on I write when the mood strikes me. And if my dishes have to wait till morning, well they can wait.
On a side note, one of my writer group friends posted this to my Facebook wall and I just love it. I felt you could all benefit from the message too.